Tension is so high you can cut it like a knife through hot butter.
At this point you might know I am closing BETHKAYA down the first week of February for a health hiatus. I am getting to the “resigned” place I need to be but will miss this day to day. I realize it won’t be forever and I know that coming back refreshed, with new perspective will be a blessing. Recovering from surgery and my family is super important to focus on.
The process of getting to this stage has taken a toll. It’s brought a lot of feelings to the surface. A chronic condition teaches you a lot. There’s no replacing these lessons but I’ve coped with those feelings in different ways.
At first I felt so determined to heal myself and broke up with everything that everyone says is bad for you. Food, People, Habits – then I went on a crazy juice cleanse that spurred a lot of healthy choices. It was too polarizing perhaps because it crashed hard into a spiral of Klondike bar abuse. The balance is always hard to strike, the climb is always happening at the same time.
SELF CARE is a constant concept that is floating around because I see a lot of BROKEN people walking around trying to break other people. We all need to take care of ourselves, we can lean on supports, ask for supports but the crux of everything comes back to whether or not you are taking care of yourself. After my fascist diet crashed I found myself eating sweets constantly. Pie, Cake, Ice cream and even EVEN fast food! What happened to my resolve?
The thing about fast food is that there is a particular flavor you know. Perhaps since from childhood, and it’s something comforting & familiar. You’re getting exactly (hopefully) what you set out to. It’s rare in life to be able to nurse that need, or have that control. I know it’s really important to be aware of when this needs to come into balance but also to live a little too.
It’s saying to yourself I can be healthy and also indulge sometimes. For me I know a piece of pie here and there is ok. The next couple days leading up to the surgery I will be mindful of my diet because I know that will be a key component to feeling well in the days after surgery. But for one night, it will be belligerently about burning calories (dancing) while having desserts too!
Next FRIDAY 2/3/17 I am hosting this party:
I am looking forward to this so much and am very thankful to the friends who are helping to put this together! Also I will be making A HUGE announcement about the future of BethKaya. If you come use hashtag #SWEETSNBEATS so I can see your event media online!
Also I would like to wish my dear friend and Self Care Cafe partner Michelle Russo a Happy Birthday! FEEL FREE to shower her with those sentiments at the party!
A little more about the event –
This started as a house party concept but I realized…
… I didn’t want people in my house before surgery! 😀 So this concept came on strong and I am flowing with it. There are a lot of amazing, talented people in the community and they also happen to support the BETHKAYA label. Thank You for that!
In historic Lakewood NJ’s beautiful STRAND THEATER, we will come together over a massive dessert bar, music, dancing, entertainment, raffle prizes and of course some BETHKAYA merch!
Jason Portizo – http://www.djjthomas.com/ – DJ, Sound Engineer
Matt Raspanti – https://www.facebook.com/mattmattbobatt – Musician
LEX REX – https://www.facebook.com/lexrexandthedragons/ @lexrexandthedragons – Musician
Chris Rockwell – https://www.facebook.com/chris.rockwell.owns @Mrchrisrockwell – Musician
Marielle Cannon – @mariella_elise – Belly Dance /Performance Artist
If you would like to RSVP (preferred but not required) or be added to the private event page, email me at BETHKAYA@gmail.com
I hope to see you there!
Also – till next friday I am running a 20% Special in the ETSY shop on orders over $25 – Use Code: CLOSINGPURGE20 at checkout!
p.s. I hope to become a better blogger – there’s so much more to talk about!